I don’t know how much longer I can go living like this. I can feel my body shutting down. I live in an emotionally abusive household. And I can finally say that now. After what literally just went down less than ten minutes ago, I can say this what it is. Being made felt worthless every single day of my life is taking a HUGE toll on how I feel about myself. How I feel about relationships I get into. Everything. Maybe that’s why I don’t have friends, or will never find a reason for a boy to like me. My parents have drilled it into my brain that I’m not a good enough person for them, so why would I be good enough for anyone else? I try so, so terribly hard to be nice to everyone, to do things for people to make them happy. And I always seem to be standing, alone. Why is that? Are my parents right about me? Has all my hope of wanting to be good enough gone away because i will never reach unrealistic views of “perfect”? I think so.. I think I jus want to feel alright and that will never happen here. But I’m scared to leave. They’re callin me downstairs now so I have to end this. Ill be back eventually..